I am no hero, I am but a man

I am no hero, I am but a man.  I am no Prince Charming.  I have no sword, no shield, and no wild stallion.  I don't have the physical body of a god; I am but mortal and fallible and human; more Grizzly Adams than Adonis; fearful of death and pain.  I have made more mistakes in life already than many have had birthdays, but am fully aware and admit so.  I disbelieve in love, yet daily find myself more full of it than I know what to do with.

I am no hero, I am but a man.  A foolish man, who dares to try and be happy in a world of woe, a world of pain and suffering, a natural world that has consumed us in all our desperate attempts to modernize and deceive ourselves into thinking we've distanced ourselves from it.  We are not distant from it, nature and life and death is all around us constantly.  We will never be rid of it, so long as we are a living and breathing species living on a planet that is life itself.  We are our own hope for the future and our own natural predator; a world in which both sides are equally repugnant to most of us.

I am no hero, I am but a man.  I have hurt people, and had pain done unto me.  I have eaten regret, not merely tasted it; felt and owned up to the feeling of remorse and allowed some to continue to haunt me to this day; knowing that pain is a lesson, a guide to keep me from walking down those paths again.  Even though some are the bitter double edged swords that beg me to question "If I'd only...," "I should have...," "should I have...?" "Could there be another chance...?" That delicate and perilous balance those who understand the subject know so well; that delicate balance between keeping the past fresh in your mind to keep the lessons alive, while trying to keep the other eye on both the present and the future, and the terrible folly of thinking it is possible.

I am no hero, I am but a man.  I am flawed, and human, and mortal.  And I always shall be.  As we all are, and ever shall we be.  This modern and deceitful life pushes us to be a perfection, to be what we are not and cannot ever be.  I say to you deny this force; throw off this artificial and superficial force driving you into such external and painful despair, forcing you to internalize it and believe it comes from within.  Inside you are you, and that is all the perfection you shall ever need to have.

I say to you to own your humanity, to own your mortality, to own your bodies and minds and flaws and mistakes.  Own your past, your present and your future.  Be not selfish in this quest, share that love with others.  Understand that your fellow humans, whether they be homeless on the street or suit clad millionaires, all suffer your same pains and woes and joys and fears.  Because we are all human, we are all a species, together trying to survive.  You must try to help the others that make our species, not the individual of yourself; a species with a great and terrible responsibility.  Then we move ourselves forward, more ourselves to care for the rest of our living brethren as well.  Own our responsibility, own ourselves, own the future; a real future, a real future of progress and the real possibility of happiness.

We do not have this in the world today.  Today we have power and greed, misunderstanding and hatred.  We have death and pains that none should experience.  We have those asking for equality around the world being met with fear and violence.  We desensitize and dehumanize ourselves in a world where such pain and suffering and sadness are made entertainment to us, a spectacle of rape and slaughter and murder a button push away, blinded by the veil of entertainment, never able to realize the horrible truth that there are those in the world to whom these horrors are daily and real, that these horrors are life, not entertainment.

Yet in this modern world, it is words that are the horrifying thing; words are what we ban; are what we ostracize and demonize.  Because words, like these words I'm writing to you all know, are the words that drive us to think and to feel, to awaken the humanity within your hearts to look at the world and go "This is wrong."  The powerful want control of the words, because words are the true power.  Too long have we allowed others to use words to blind us, to guide us and imprison and shackle us.  It is our turn to discover our voice, to discover our own words.  It is by words we demand what's right and expose the artificial world that desensitizes us  all, that makes us internalize our pains and drives us into the obscurity of anonymity.

You are not anonymous in a crowd, a crowd with a voice demanding justice, only alone are you anonymous.  Stand tall my people, stand tall my friends, tell yourselves you are not a hero, you are a human, demanding with your sibling humans what is right and good in the world.  A good world is not an oppressed world, where people use words like value and morals to justify placing limitations on their fellow humans, to justify death and rape and slaughter on any level.  A good world does not deny a species with the ability to choose and think it's right to do so.  Make this a good world, we are all humans of equality, where rights are available to all, not privileged to a few.  Own your pain my fellow siblings of humanity, but do not let it shackle you.  Own your pasts to fix your presents so that you may claim your futures.  Do this my siblings, my kin, and we shall all as one change the world.  Be the unified voice, and in doing so, we shall own our justice.  

I am no hero, I am but a man.  We are no heroes, we are but humans.  We are not individuals, we are a species.  We are not separate, we are equal, and alive in this tiny world we all call home.  It is time to be one, to be the human species, and to be the whole.

Another update to The First Brother

Salutations!  An odd greeting for me being arachnophobic, but I tolerate cartoon spiders.  Announcing the next big set of updates to The First Brother over on my website "Mind of Kleinnak".  Hit the link here and check it out! http://kleinnak.blogspot.com/p/first-brother.html

Updates to The First Brother

Hello everyones, just posted an update to The First Brother over on my other page.  Go check it out and enjoy!  http://kleinnak.blogspot.com/p/first-brother.html

Hey all!  Announcing my newest project, The First Brother.  This is a fairly drastic change thematically from my other two projects, though I admit that at this point I'm probably going to drop Cain and Lucifer at this point.  I like the start, but I really have no idea where I'm going to go with it from here.

Thematically, The First Brother gets much of its inspiration from both the classic westerns and Japanese Anime and Manga.  Its plot follows Ichiro Itano (or more correctly Itano Ichiro, if you put the family name first).  Ichiro is given up by his parents at the age of ten with ten other boys to be trained to serve as the body-guard/assassin to a mob boss.  However, Ichiro soon learns that his leader is no ordinary mobster, and his service will soon test him in ways he never imagined.

Cain and Lucifer

Hello everyone!  Just writing to post the first part of my new sort of "webnovel", Cain and Lucifer.  I'm hoping to be able to post a chapter or so a week, give or take, and you at home get to follow along as it's written.  Don't you feel special!  Anyway, I won't give any spoilers or anything away right now, just read and I hope you enjoy the mystery as it unfolds!

New Site

Hey everyone, just letting you all know that I've just launched a second site, "The Mind of Kleinnak" which is a bit of a change of pace than here.  It's a compilation of my fictional works (short stories, etc), instead of my more topical posts here.  Though I suppose if you strongly disagree enough with the posts I've had here you'd say there's probably not much difference!  Anyway, please check it out, give the first story, "Snapshots" a read and hopefully you'll enjoy.  All the best.

What is Obama's credit for the death of bin Laden?

One of the most irksome things I have seen from the recent events concerning the death of Osama bin Laden has been the odd outcry of people saying that Obama doesn't deserve any credit for what happened.  In response to this, I have penned this piece.  I admit it was first posted on my uncle's Facebook wall where a small debate of this topic was going on, but I decided to post it here as well.

Does he deserve all the credit? No. But as Commander-in-Chief of the US Armed Forces, it was on his watch, and it was his call. The intelligence community was briefing him, he was aware of what was going on, he gave the order, and he watched it go down. That much has been stated over and over again. The US Armed Forces were not going to just go and carry out a mission of this magnitude without keeping the President constantly briefed, even from the days we were merely suspicious of his location. By that same logic we can't have called it Bush's credit had bin Laden been killed on his watch.

In fact it happened completely and utterly not on Bush's watch and people are actually trying to say Bush deserves the credit for it. To think that in this day and age of nearly instantaneous communication that the Commander-in-Chief, the head honcho, the go-to-guy, the big button-pusher, is just sitting on the sidelines on military affairs is frankly just ludicrous. In fact it's been argued that the Office of the President has been TOO involved in military matters since the Korean War. After all, who is the one to make the final decision to launch America's nuclear arsenal? Not the head of the CIA. Not the Secretary of Defense. The President. The Commander-in-Chief. So really, I think it's probably completely 180° opposite, he didn't have nothing to do with it, he probably had a huge amount to do with it.

Not giving Obama his due as Commander-in-Chief and the one who ordered the mission is the start of a slippery slope... where do you stop? Not giving Obama credit for giving the go ahead and issuing the commands to carry out the mission would essentially start to discredit all past presidents and leaders in times of crisis. Roosevelt and Truman weren't physically dropping bombs or firing rifles and machine guns, nor were Churchill or Stalin, but they all get credit for being the leaders who ended WWII and defeated Hitler and Japan. They gave the orders for those things to happen though. Lincoln didn't grab up an officer's sword and march in with his boys to take care of ol' Johnny Reb, but we credit him with being the President who won the Civil War. He won it by being a leader and making decisions that needed to be made. That is what happened in the morning of May 1 in Abbottabad, Pakistan.

In the end, you can't give credit to some for an action and deny others the credit for essentially that same action. That's hypocrisy, plain and simple. Obama made a decision. A very difficult decision. History and precedent say he gets some kudos for this. Just because, sorry, you [the person on the other half of the debate] obviously don't like him, just because many don't want him to have the credit, doesn't mean he shouldn't get credit. I cast no aspersions as to why you don't like him, just that's what I'm going on as you rather explicitly stated that. But for comparison, I never liked Bush, but I give him credit for his accomplishments. Saddam Hussein was deposed and indeed dispatched on his watch. He handled receiving the word of the Sept. 11 attacks in that classroom extremely well (upside down book aside... I really dare anyone to receive word that a massive terrorist attack had just taken place in a classroom of schoolchildren and really care what way the book is facing...). Yet Bush did not haul Saddam out of that hideout himself. He did not lead our forces across Afghanistan and Iraq. But he made decisions and he has to be given credit for them and the consequences of them. And so does Obama.

Thoughts on the Death of Bin Laden

Earlier today, I made a Facebook post in which I expressed disgust with the American and world publics over some reactions I've seen concerning the death of Osama Bin Laden.  I admit that post was unfair of me... I know that there are certainly many more who fully appreciate what actually went on in the late hours of Sunday/early hours of Monday in Pakistan than there are those who don't, the images of the people cheering in the streets of Washington, DC and NYC are evidence of that... but to read comments like I have on articles and other things related to the death of Bin Laden... it is a little demoralizing.  Seriously, when did critical thinking become such a luxury item, and common sense become such a rarity?  Apply even a little bit of those to these events and the reasons things were done the way they were is very apparent.  What follows are some of the main questions I’ve seen in regards to what has happened, with my own personal answers, that I came to after thinking long and hard about much of what has happened.

Q.) Why did it take since August when the first bits of intelligence started coming in for them to go ahead and carry out the attack?

A.) Bin Laden, let’s face it, has been really good at hiding.  There's just no denying it.  He's had many supporters in many places that have been perfectly willing to help conceal him for over a decade (I say over a decade because we've been hunting him much longer than Sept. 11, 2001).  Even the most zealous proponent of killing him would have to admit that going in with your gun half-cocked when you only had a suspicion of where he was could have been disastrous.  It could have greatly increased anti-American sentiments in Pakistan and in the Middle-East in general if US forces went shooting people up or dropping missiles in a major metropolitan area in the event he wasn't actually there at the time, or there at all.  With something of this magnitude you want to be absolutely and utterly 100% sure that the target is there before you act.  If we'd squandered that, we could have lost the chance forever because he would learn from the mistakes.

Q.) Why didn't we use a drone to kill him?

A.) Recent events (or at least the past decade) have proven that drones and bombs/missiles are an extremely unreliable way to carry out something like this.  Plus going in with Special Forces allowed us the chance to capture him as well if it had been possible.  He could have very easily survived such a missile strike and escaped.  Or we could have turned him into vapor with such an explosion and we would just never know.  And then where would we be?  No, we had a real chance, we knew with absolute certainty he was there, and we finally acted.  In a way that allowed us to verify we had his body and that he was dead and to dispose of him: plain and simple.

Q.) How did we verify it was him?

A.) With DNA from the brain of his sister who died in Boston a few years ago.  Not going to elaborate on this one, it's not necessary.

Q.) Why did we so quickly bury him at sea?

A.) Yes... one has to admit that this does give conspiracy theorists some fodder (no, not admit it's suspicious, but admit that some would find it suspicious because that’s just what they live to do, find things suspicious), but I think the good done in going about it this way is much greater than the harm done in feeding conspiracy theorists.  After all, these people are so obsessed with trying to catch the US lying that the SEALs could have taken them all along when carrying out the raid and they still wouldn't believe it was real. However, Bin Laden has been the symbol of anti-American terrorism for nearly two decades, on both sides.  Imagine the spectacle that would have been made of having his body make it to the US and have pictures and videos of the body make it out to the public.  It would have been another Mussolini, but worse, much worse.  Instead of a joke, he would have been turned into an even bigger martyr than he is now.  If he'd been buried his grave would have undoubtedly been turned into a shrine.  Now only those who pushed him over the side have any idea where he was laid to rest.  And even images of his dead body would have been turned into rallying symbols for his followers.  After all, isn't the primary image of Christian martyrdom the image of Jesus hanging on the cross?  Giving them a symbol of that magnitude, of the man who "died for his cause" could have been disastrous.  Now we have left them with doubt, without a leader and without a symbol.  Now all they know is that instead of in a cave in the middle of nowhere, working out a measly living for his cause, he was killed in a veritable mansion fortress surrounded by guards and barbed wire.  That is very damaging for his image, I think, in the long run.  So, let’s agree to leave martyr symbols to those who died trying to do some actual good in the world, not mass murderers, agreed?

Q.) Does Obama deserve credit?

A.) Of course he does.  But yes, our forces do deserve more of it, as they always do in conflict.  However, they could not act without his say so.  From all I've seen, Obama and his advisors handled this situation exactly the way they should have.  And that's not being an Obama fan-boy, that's just thinking about the situation critically.  Obama said, "We will kill Bin Laden", and on his watch, it happened, and with his go ahead.  Of course much of it had to be kept secret because this was too big an opportunity to let go to waste or, again, screw up by going in without complete intelligence.  But Obama got the information, got the confirmation, and gave the go ahead.  Even then, after he received word the attack was successful, even making the announcement was delayed until they were 100% sure of the information they had that Bin Laden really had been killed and we really had his body.  Obama could have waited longer and missed the chance.  He could have acted too soon and missed the chance.  He could have spoken on it too soon and been wrong.  Caution is not a sin.  But now Bin Laden is dead, and Obama was the man who said "go".  We praise Roosevelt and Truman as being the presidents who won the Second World War.  Why do they deserve more credit than Obama when really they did the same as him?  They didn't go over there and fight the Germans/Japanese themselves, but they definitely made most of the decisions and gave the go ahead to carry out campaigns.  I don’t recall any tales of Lincoln marching off to battle with his soldiers to put down the Confederate uprising.  To praise others for one thing and denounce someone else for the same action speaks of a prejudice.  Exactly what prejudice can only be speculated, but it is evidence that one exists.  Be careful of that.  Especially when some are claiming the credit should go to the last president, George W. Bush, who had absolutely nothing whatsoever to do with what just happened.  This all certainly speaks of a lack of critical understanding and critical thinking and common sense of a situation.  Critical thinking and common sense break down when thoughts and ideas become “beliefs”.  Those are perhaps the most dangerous things of all.  September 11, 2001 was proof enough of that.

No matter how much some people don't want to give Obama any credit for anything, he did it.  He did what Bush didn't in nearly two terms of office.  Maybe it was just luck, but that doesn't change the significance at all.  Some of the greatest and most significant events in history have been the product of luck.  Reality and history really do not care whatsoever about what you want to have happened.  And pissing and moaning about it when you should be celebrating with the rest of the world that a man who acted out horrible genocide and plotted more genocide, and worked to inspire countless others to plot and carry out more genocide has gotten what he had coming to him... is just counter-productive.  Join us, and smile that a symbol of hatred and death is gone.  This is not a time for partisanship and mistrust and more hatred and prejudice; this is not even just at time to be Americans.  This is a time for the world to come together and realize that those who plot great death and murder get what's theirs in the end.  We can all at least unite under that banner I'm sure, can't we?